No, Really…
I’m alive, I swear.
Since my last post, I’ve graduated. I’ve stressed about college. I’ve moved in. I’ve gotten settled in college. Fourteen has also returned. I sent him an email telling him I was sorry for the way I left things with him and that I didn’t want it to end like that. He said he was starting to wonder if I was ever going to talk to him again. He then goes on to explain that he thought I just needed some time to myself. Which I probably did. We’re talking again. He says he loves me. That he never stopped loving me. I’m not too sure how I feel about that. I am still with the Aussie, and he’s been really sweet and good to me. So has this other guy I’ve sorta been seeing. All three of them know about each other, but not exactly details.
I met up with the guy I got caught with the cops with too. We had some fun in a hotel room. I really enjoyed that. I wish I could have stayed loner. We might get together again, but I don’t know. None of my real boys know about him and it feels like cheating even though with ALL of them I’m technically single. Oh, and the parentals don’t know. Not that they would ever let me see him ANYWAY. Especially if they found out what we did. Or what I did to him, rather. 
It was fun. I’d like to see him again.
Anyway, Fourteen confuses me, Aussie has been good but we don’t get a chance to talk that much anymore now that I’m at college (which is going fabulously) and this new guy says he’s in love with me and I really like him too, maybe even love him, but he reminds me so much of my ex. I don’t know if I can do that again 
Nothing against him, it’s really more of a personal issue that I have to work out.
I don’t really know what to do at this point. I figured I’d just go along until someone demanded a change. One of the boys, probably. Fourteen hasn’t made any noises about becoming exclusive, Aussie says he wants me to see other boys while I’m here because he doesn’t want to be responsible for me missing opportunities. This new boy… I don’t have a name for him yet… He might demand something more permanent. We’ll see how that goes.
