Decisions, Decisions.
So here’s my dilemma.
I have Fourteen. He’s charming, smart, funny, has strong family values, very driven in his pursuits, and I’ve known him the longest. He’s also had a breakdown, is far away, still has another year of school left before university, stubborn, not very affectionate, becomes introverted when he’s upset, and wants to “take it slow”. But he was the first boy I fell in love with. I’ve always felt that. A doesn’t count. That was a trivial, frivolous, petty little crush.
Then there’s the new guitar boy. He’s very caring and understanding, he has a job (kinda), very affectionate which is something I really want, and he’s a musician. But he’s got a big chip on his shoulder about girls, has an unstable family, reminds me a LOT of A, and still has another year of school. But he’s the most affectionate out of the three boys, which is BIG bonus points. He makes me feel like he really wants me.
Then my Aussie. He already has a stable and steady job, has an established life, is probably one of the most forgiving people I know, is also very caring and understanding, and is affectionate after being prodded a bit. But he lives in AUSTRALIA! Of all the places in the world, he lives in Australia. He doesn’t want to move here because yes, he has a job where he is now, and he just doesn’t really like the US, which I understand haha. But his job also has long hours, he won’t talk to me when he’s upset at all, and he doesn’t always make the effort to talk to me, but that’s sort of understandable with the time difference.
So who do I choose? The first boy I fell in love with, the man who can provide the best future for me at the moment and who I truly do love, or the fresh faced new boy?
Ugh.
